In which Melface reveals how lazy and indifferent she is and requests your help... or something

Hello my followers/minions!

There are three of you now! A real army! Dismiss the fact that I know all of you IRL. It matters little. Your interest in my blog will soon turn to devotion and then addiction! Soon I will control your minds!

Okay, enough of that.

I've been pretty fail about this whole blogging thing. Granted, I never promised I'd be constant, but since the Fall semester ended I really have no excuse. Except that I'm ridiculously lazy. Not that it's a good excuse, but it is true. I don't like to think of myself as lazy because I'm pretty much always busy, but the last few weeks have showed me that my laziness knows no bounds; I am a danger to myself.

Let me explain. 

Of course, the holidays have a busyness all their own, but Christmas was relatively relaxed for me this year and, since Christmas, life has been downright easy. Without classes, my only true obligation is work and my part-time hours mean that I only work three days a week. That's right. My days off work outnumber the days I work. So what have I been doing the last two weeks in my great number of off hours? Almost nothing. I mean, I've been reading a lot (last week I read six books) and I've gone to the movies a couple times, and even hung out with friends a little. And those things are fun, but completely unproductive. And this time I can't even blame my boyfriend because he's been out of the country.

Case in point, I'm so lazy I took a break just now from writing this blog so I could eat potato chips and a bagel in front of my fireplace for a while. Pure laziness and my mother's cold-intolerant genes.

So the last two weeks has more or less been me doing what I do best: inactive-type activities. And do I regret this? Not a bit. That's probably the worse part; I'm completely unrepentant.

But alas, all things must eventually end. Today I had a long list of to-dos and I managed to do all of them (except play WoW but this was obviously less of a necessity and more of a fervent wish) including a number of things I had been putting off for weeks. So I guess today was a win and I did feel pretty good about it, but it wasn't as much fun as my lazy lounging.

From here on out I have a number of rather serious projects for myself. For example, find a job. Now that I'm finished with all my undergrad work, my three-days-a-week part-time job just won't cut it. A friend of mine (who just completed her Master's) shared that when her relatives ask what her plans are for her vacation she reminds them that, technically, it is less a vacation and more like unemployment now. Well, I'm in the same boat. Now that undergrad is complete, I need to find a job that offers me way more hours. So the job hunt is officially on! Have I mentioned that I hate job-hunting? Then again, I doubt anyone really cares for it. I'll also be applying for grad school, but the earliest I would start is in Fall, so I need to be working and saving up money in the meantime.

Speaking of saving money, I am putting aside money for two trips this summer that I'm very excited about: Disney World/Universal  Studios, Florida/The Wizarding World of Harry Potter and VidCon2011.

Let's talk about VidCon! :D I went to VidCon 2010 (the first year of VidCon) and it was probably the highlight of my summer. VidCon is a Youtube video convention organized by the vlogbrothers (John and Hank Green) and features a variety of the hottest Youtubers including sketch groups, vloggers, and musicians. It's basically everything you love about Youtube (and, by extension, the internet) live and in-person. It's pretty small in convention terms (I'm used to Anime Expo and BlizzCon) so it feels pretty intimate. Last year I got pictures and autographs with almost all of my favorite Youtubers and this year looks like it might be even better.

So what did we learn today? (Correct answer: "I want to go to VidCon 2011.")

Oh! And if you buy your registration for VidCon 2011 RIGHT NOT (or until Monday, Jan 10th anyway) you only pay $70. Trust me, it's worth it. But I'm just sayin'.

I decided to change the font just now. Minions/friends, what you do think of this font? Keep in mind that my options (and my interest) are limited. Does it look any different to you? How does it make you feel?

Now, about my indifference. I'm not actually indifferent, but I keep wondering if it seems like I am. As previously mentioned, my boyfriend is out of town (for three-ish weeks) and everyone seems to expect this to really bother me and keeps asking how I'm doing in his absence, if I'm missing him/lonely, etc. Of course I miss him. I love my boyfriend and I miss seeing him sometimes when he's in town and we don't get much time together. But I'm not lonely or upset or even jealous and I'm certainly not just waiting for him to come home. I love that he's traveling abroad even if it is without me--this time anyway. But this doesn't seem to be the response that everyone wants. I'm supposed to say how lonely I am without him, how I'm just counting down days til he comes home, etc. But, I'm not really the girl who sits at home waiting. Even though I've spent a lot of time at home lately, none of it felt like wasting time or waiting. 

The first week he was away, my family was watching me like a hawk and constantly attributing my actions to "She's missing Earl." It was annoying. The vast majority of that week was spent in perfectly normal, lazy activities. What did missing my boyfriend have to do with my reading? The one time it might have been justified was, at the end of that first week, when I randomly bought Earl a shirt that was on sale. I maintain that such an action was perfectly reasonable. The shirt was one of those flannel shirts that he's been fond of lately, it was on sale, and they had one is his size. Why wouldn't I buy it? Yes, I may have mentioned that the green would match his eyes, but really? It isn't like I've been using the shirt to fill his absence. The shirt is still in the bag from the store and has been in the same place in my room since I bought it: under my desk. 

There's a line in the book Jane Eyre that I really love in which one character, commenting on his connection to his soul-mate (the protagonist, Jane Eyre) says, "It is as if I had a string somewhere under my left ribs, tightly and inextricably knotted to a similar string situated in the corresponding quarter of your little frame. And if that boisterous channel, and two hundred miles or so of land come between us, I am afraid that cord of communion will be snapt; and then I've a nervous notion I should take to bleeding inwardly." I love that line, but in some ways I cannot relate. I do feel like there is a tie between us that is inextricably knotted, but I don't really feel like the distance is a strain. Is that unromantic of me? After all, it is only for a few weeks. We survived years without each other that made us the people we were/are and those years only made us more prepared to appreciate each other once we did find each other. We have plans to spend the rest of our lives together and, hopefully, that will be many, many years. 

Anyway, everyone's questions have made me a bit defensive and I wanted to be able to explain myself. And, in the end, it doesn't really matter if other people think I'm being indifferent. I know Earl likes that I find the idea of having an emotional crisis due to his absence... repugnant. We may be inextricably bound, but we are unique individuals.

Minions, I give you two tasks and they both involve commenting on this blog. If you want me to keep blogging , then give me a little motivation and encouragement by responding to my questions in comments. So, first task: respond to the unimportant font change. Second task: I want suggestions of a new, entertaining project I can undertake in addition to the more important, less fun projects already on my plate. What should I do? :D

Now, go! [I just wanted to end this blog with a command; is that so wrong?]